Preferred Job Vs Present Job = Potion or Poison? Present or Prison?

When we were kids we always fantasize about our future. What we would be in the next 10 years. Most will fantasized about being a doctor, pilot, or may be astronaut. Do you remember what you fantasized back then when you were 5 years old? I remember fantasizing about nothing. I never thought about what would I be and what should I do. It kinda is funny and intriguing realizing myself as kid with no job to dream about. 

Just like the dreamer, dream itself will always change. Constantly. There will come times in our lives where we will have to move on to the next level, to the next chapter of our lives. From playground to schoolyard, from schoolyard to working field. And then suddenly, we would have to build a family. As we grow, our dreams evolve. We’re no longer thinking about those dream jobs we used to dream. We learn how to be more realistic than idealistic. Not by choice, but by natural adaptation and learning process. But the question is, were those dreams ever really “gone”? How long until those dreams catch up and haunt our lives?  

Ever wonder about what you do for a living and what you really want to do for living? Are they in a perfect harmony? Ever wonder how you ended up with what you are doing now? Me? Couldn’t stop wondering.

Confucius said, “Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.” So if I spend every sunrises waking up hoping that day I won’t have to do the same exact 1440 exact things in each and every minute, is it because I chose the wrong job? Or is it because I have a wrong dream? And even if I ended up with a job I’ve been dreaming of. Will I ever feel content? Will ever be able to feel like I really am living my dream and not working my life?  

What if you take a minute and think… What is your dream, preferred, job? What is your present job? When it comes to “present” job, I couldn’t stop thinking… Is it a “present” or a “prison”? Is it a “Potion” for life or a “Poison” to life? Is it a “remedy” or “tragedy”?

Thinking about job and future is frustrating. And there will come a lot of times in our lives when even though we believe the sky is the limit, we just can’t fly any higher. When even though it is known since forever that mother earth is round, we feel like we are in a dead end, and we just can’t go any further. But never forget not to stop but to keep going. Because whatever we end up being are consequences of series of actions we took. And nothing we can do but to be responsible. 

Love and Pain = Circumstantial or Complimentary Essentials?

Every morning when I look at my window, there is this happy-hate feeling running through me. I’m happy because it always helps as an extra alarm clock in the morning. Beside, this full-wall of window looks actually nice, in the artsy kinda way. But I hate the fact it wake me a few minutes before I’m supposed to. Yeah, this window is pretty much everything I love about my room and everything I hate about it.

Isn’t it funny one exact same thing can bring about two different reactions, two different feelings, and not just different but a direct opposite? It’s amusing how you can love and hate something as much. Love and hate the exact same thing in a pretty much the exact same proportion.

Let’s take a minute and think of one of the most humiliating occurrences you had ever gone through. When you think again about it, does it still feel as humiliating? Or could it somehow be joyfully entertaining and funny? Could you somehow feel the wittiness of that? So… The humiliation and the uneasiness. Are the occurrences circumstantial? Or our feeling is?

“In Chinese philosophy, yin and yang describes how apparently opposite or contrary forces are actually complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another. In Daoist metaphysics, distinctions between good and bad, along with other dichotomous moral judgments, are perceptual, not real; so, the duality of yin and yang is an indivisible whole.” – William Baxter

It got me thinking about relationship where there must be love and pain. I couldn’t help but wonder, is relationship is also like that? Love and pain coexist in the same proportion. Are love and pain in a relationship circumstantial? Or are they complimentary essential? Are love and pain = the Yin and the Yang of a relationship? Do we really need that yin and yang in a balance proportion to keep the relationship alive? Or maybe a relationship is a different dimension connecting the yin and the yang, the love and the pain? Relationship, is it a butterfly in our stomach? Or is it a pain-in-our-arses in disguise? 

Can we ever show love and affection without inflicting pain to the ones we care about? Can we make ones suffer such a pain without caring about them? Maybe we will always make someone smile and frown every once in a while. Smile and Frown, Smown. We make everybody smown.